As I grow older, I learned to observe myself consciously, to understand my beliefs and actions as a young woman.

Discussing the book "Captivating" with Teacher Anne got me to delve deeper into my heart and ask myself who I am as a woman. The authors say a woman yearns to be romanced, to be rescued by a brave prince/soldier/hero. A woman desires to be beautiful and to be loved.
Interesting.

I question myself if that is what I genuinely want. What do you think?
My conclusion after our first book discussion?
My strength is my weakness.

For once, I am not proud that I always seem so strong in front of others. It is a gift, I must admit, but it can be a curse as well, especially when you refuse to let yourself to be vulnerable to the help of others.

Another thing I realised? I do not like people breathing down my neck, pushing me to do things within a time frame. I like to set my own slow tempo. Chill. Relax. Be slow. But apparently, this will be my downfall especially when everything's changing too fast.

So I thought hard about the "jobs" where I could take my own sweet time completing my responsibilities.
I could only think of 3.
1. Taitai
2. Housewife
3. NTU cleaner

Oh great, I think I better start to do things quickly. I don't want to be in these 3 "jobs"!
Buck up Esther! Don't procrastinate already!

Parting shot: Look at my nails when I play the piano this Saturday.
Brought to you by Char, unofficially sponsored by Skin Food. Heh.