teething
i brushed my teeth last night and i had an uncanny feeling of having something stuck at the back of my mouth. with my cute chubby index finger, i reached in to feel what's in there.
gaaaaahhhhhh. it's hard. and feels like a tooth.

first thought: wisdom tooth.
peered into the mirror and yes! it's a growing tooth right behind my molar!
sob. i hate those wisdom teeth. i've heard too many nightmarish wisdom teeth extractions. *shivers*

chuan said it may not be wisdom teeth but i can't think of what else it could be.
perhaps it's a hard white teeth-like CANDY embedded in my gums?

it's affecting my biting a little. i hope nothing bad happens to my teeth.
i really don't like the dentist chair. it's hard and i don't want to sit on it too frequently.

que sera sera
i remember mom singing this song to me and sarah when we were young. i thought it was a song about sarah and i was madly jealous. how come she has a song about her name?

then i grew up and realised this song isn't about sarah (haha) but it is actually a nice little song from the 1950s which means "whatever will be, will be".
as i start to think about my future, about what i should do after i graduate, about so many uncertainties in my christian walk, i begin to understand and appreciate this song.

(as recalled from what my mom sang to me. yes i have immense memory for songs that i sang in my childhood)
when i was just a little girl
i asked my mother
what would i be
will i be pretty?
will i be rich?
that's what she said to me...

que sera sera
whatever will be, will be
the future's not us to see
que sera sera

i trust in God for my future. i pray for more revelations.
i cannot see the future. we all can't.
but God can!
clarity. i seek clarity in my future.


ps. weiching you are a dear! thanks for the "enchanted" songs ;)