you know these teenagers are desperate when they approached me
after school, i headed to causeway point to get my fix of gourmet yogurt from cold storage. as i walked towards the entrance, i heard some muffled grunts behind me.

turned around, and i saw 2 fuchun secondary school girls in uniform trying to get my attention. they started rambling in badly enunciated english while i tried my hardest to understand them.
first attempt: failed.
got them to repeat what they were saying. and they mumbled AGAIN.
but this time round, i caught the crucial phrase - "fresh faces".

ahhhhh talent scouts! they are those teenagers whom you see in orchard road, bugging you to give your number so some bogus model/talent agency can contact you and expand their pool of "talents".

poor girls. when they approached me, i knew they were already at their wit's end.
they just need a name and number so they can get their commission.

i rejected them.

things have to be so hard
and the hardest for me now?
a relationship.
this relationship thingy makes me afraid. i get too cautious.
too protective.
my ideals get onto me...
and in the end, i get nowhere.

but whichever way, i know i've made the right moves and settled everything nicely (or so i assume), at least for now.

God still loves and pursues me, and knowing this satisfies me already.