God has been so good.

I wanted to keep all the problems I faced just this past week to myself and carry them alone.
After all, these problems aren't exactly a good reflection of me. They showed my vulnerable side.

But I thank God for today's (Saturday 2040) worship. I took down my jovial mask immediately when I settled in the sanctuary. One afternoon of facework was tiring.
I told God I wanted to be real before Him. No use hiding.
When I made the decision to praise our Lord and not wallow in self-pity on my frustration and disappointment, suddenly I caught a glimpse of hope.

Most importantly, I thank God for my brothers and sisters in church. Because when I took the first step to share openly about what I've been feeling just this week about my Teens cell and my exam preparation, they were all so supportive and encouraging. I thought they wouldn't bother with my sharing, but I was wrong. They dropped me smses and offered me advice and support.

Zhenghua shared that we may be fighting many losing battles in our lives right now, but ultimately, we will win because Christ has already overcome all these with his resurrection! Why focus on the small losing battles when we should be looking forward to the eventual victory?

I took the first step to share my struggles, and that's what matters.

Acknowledging my weakness is the first step not to humiliation, but to liberation.