I know I haven't been blogging for about more than 1 week, and I wanted to write a post on my favourite cakes in Singapore, but my laptop crashed on me last Friday. Bye bye to my latest photos and the articles I need for my final term paper. URGH. So, I spent a frantic Friday night thinking about what to do and whining on the phone to DR.

Honestly, I haven't had a smooth last week. Screw-ups, rejections and laptops crashing - what more can I ask for? Ha. I was angry with myself that I cracked my own laptop screen and after a while, the whole system crashed. Considering that I paid $2100 for the laptop (Yes, it was THAT expensive) with a loan 4 years ago, I would have wished to use this lousy laptop for another, say, half a year. I really don't want and can't afford to spend extra money to repair that laptop.

So, on Saturday morning, I was frustrated when I sat down to play the piano. But on my piano, there is a decorative piece on which the verse from Romans 8:28 is inscribed - "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

What a timely verse. On Saturday, as I reflect on my not-very-smooth week on the train to church, I realise that I have been holding on too tightly to old things, when God is eager to lavish on me new and better things. I keep thinking about how good, how worth it if I were to have that lousy old thing for a longer time, obstructing my full capacity to welcome new things. Then this phrase came to my mind: 旧的不去，新的不来. Next, I saw the imagery of new wine skins. New wine cannot be poured into old wine skins... I believe God is telling me something.

My conclusion is: I still thank God in all circumstances. Bad week for me doesn't mean I worship a bad God. It is a learning process...

That Saturday, I received a new netbook (from DR)!! He specially chose and bought it for me, so I can use it for my school work just this weekend. He is not super rich okay... and this new netbook cost him a significant hole in his bank account. Therefore, this gift is too big. Yet, I don't want to reject his loving goodwill too. DR's generous giving tells me that this is how much Jesus loves me and you, a love too big that we absolutely do not deserve it since we did nothing to earn it.

You may say I earn this laptop because I am his girlfriend and this is precisely the reason why. It's not because I shower him with a lot gifts/words of encouragement and that's why he is reciprocating. No, no, definitely not like that.

In the same way, we can receive God's love because of the fact that we are God's dearly loved ones, not because we give a lot to Him.

I believe that God is good and my future is sure in His hands! Yes to a new and brighter future after graduation!