As I grow up, somehow, surprisingly, my tastebuds become more mature and I learn to eat more food that I find disgusting when I was younger. I realise, my threshold for bitterness has increased. One of the signs of being older?

Presenting the list of "disgusting" food I now eat/drink
1) Bittergourd - I hated it when I was younger. Now I get my mom to cook it in soup. It's yummy!!
2) Herbal Jelly (not the canned one, the really authentic, bitter one)
3) Carrot juice
4) Salmon skin
5) Sea cucumber
6) Olives

Food I STILL can't muster the courage to eat them willingly:
1) Half-boiled eggs (I know many people like to eat this... but I think I was traumatised by the weirdly-prepared ones my mom forced me to eat when I was around 10 years old)
2) Lady's fingers
3) Brinjal/Eggplant
4) Pork with visible pieces of lard (but I'm learning)
5) White chicken skin

So much different kinds of food in the world... I'm sure I won't miss out anything if I were not to eat these 4 things I don't have the courage to eat!

I can't believe it!

I spent the whole day in Woodlands Civic Centre McDonald's together with Denise, Van and Cecilia... just to do up a less than 20 slides presentation!!!

We sat there from 1045am to 630pm! Like seriously. Blame it on having to look for scenes that features communication using the computer (ie, chatrooms, emails...blahblahblah). We need to find links to these clips that feature such scenes. So imagine having to watch the whole movie just to catch this particular scene. After getting home, I had my dinner, went on to search for clips, then we had discussions online from 9pm to 1130pm! How do I put the FRUSTRATED EMOTICON?

After rushing my FYP report for the last 3 weeks, this presentation is not very welcomed.

For 3 weeks, I didn't attend prayer meeting due to my FYP report but when I went today, feeling like a non-eloquent and timid Moses, God rained down His love on me, more than what I've asked.

As I was praying in worship, our Senior Pastor suddenly said we could request for pastors to pray for us by raising our hands. I wanted to raise my hand but I was too proud (or maybe reluctant) to do so. How I wished someone could come over to pray for me because deep inside, I knew I needed someone to pray for me.

Midway, I felt a hand touching my back warmly, and I teared (teared is an understatement. Hmm... maybe you can say I cried, with mucus flowing and no tissue paper! HAHA) because I know God has sent someone to pray for me, telling me how God's love is beyond my parents' or anyone's love.

Then, came another hand came over me, touched my head with assurance, and the voice began to pray for my future, for the boldness to run towards the calling that God has given me and blessed me, saying that wherever I go, I will make a difference in that place. Again,the mucus and tears flowed freely. Wished I had a packet of tissue paper to blow my nose and wipe away the trail of mucus above my lips which was threatening to seep into my mouth!! OKAY, it's eewwwwww. But I convinced myself that no one was looking... Ha.

But genuinely, I am just immensely thankful to God for sending these angels to pray for me even when I didn't raise my hand to request for one. God knows my desires. He loves me too much to ignore me. *happily sighs* Thank you Lord!

I like to read blogs and nowadays, I read of lives slipping away... the bleakness and frustration were unbearable. The helplessness, the loneliness, the exclusion, the isolation, the major decisions in life where you have no clue what to do, the disappointments, the many times of trying but still failing.. oh, they are such pains.

I can feel it and I can't help but feel unsettled and terrible for these people. I truly feel it, in my mind especially. My heart is still not as active as my mind, so I don't cry for them. But yes, my mind is overwhelmed with these thoughts of bleakness as I read their blogs.

The full life, innocence, heart-to-heart talks and laughter that once surrounded us seem to be replaced by monotony, lies, superficial talks and tears as we grow older and become more aware of us having to fight for ourselves, our dreams.

Christians are not always happy (or deluded) people. We have our fair share of struggles and stress.

So whenever, I feel such negative thoughts looming over my mind, I remember the song my mom used to sing when she cooks in the kitchen in the morning, and I will have the strength to carry on. This song has helped me through my FYP journey and disappointing times. It is a church hymn written in the 19th century. Who says hymns are boring and dry?

Please read the lyrics of this hymn "What A Friend We Have in Jesus" and be blessed.

What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer!
Oh, what peace we often forfeit,
Oh, what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer!

Are we weak and heavy-laden,
Cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge—Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do thy friends despise, forsake thee?
Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In His arms He’ll take and shield thee,
Thou wilt find a solace there.

P/S Thank you God the busy weekend is over!!! FYP report-rushing and James127 Camp are over and I can rest the whole day at home today. Yay....

Bloody Bangkok! Ewww. And I mean it in the literal way, not in the swearing way, if you know what I mean.

I have been seeing Bangkok in the news because of the literally, bloody Red-Shirt protests against the current government. They want Thaksin back. Why? The current Prime Minister Abhisit is very handsome what... And he is well-educated, so why do they want the corrupted Thaksin back? But I remember that they say Abhisit is more popular with the well-to-do but Thaksin can connect better with the rural poor.

At first I thought the blood they splashed on the government house were containers of animal blood. But after looking more into the news, I realised that they drew a teaspoon of blood with syringes from each of the Red-Shirt protesters... meaning, it's HUMAN blood they splashed! Who knows who has AIDS! Honestly, have they considered their hygiene when they decided to go for this protest?

EWWW. Bloody Bangkok... I hope these protesters wake up their idea because it is tarnishing the image of Bangkok as a holiday destination and pushing all businesses away. I wonder how this whole thing will end.


ANYWAY! FYP report is submitted and done!!! WHEEEEEE. I wrote 9,774 words! I am amazed! I am submitting everything to God, no matter what grades I get, I will still praise the Lord. I am not going to worry about anything already.

So now, I can concentrate on other presentations and an essay assignment from my two other modules! (: (:

James 127 Camp tomorrow... Got to wake up early!

Sarah showed me a quiz she did during her module on news writing and reporting. I had fun attempting the questions because I like these kind of general knowledge.

They were asked to give the capital of the countries mentioned in the piece of paper. You can test yourself!

1. Australia: ____ (Sarah put Melbourne! I was like -.-" YOU DIDN'T KNOW?)
2. Taiwan: _____
3. United States of America: ____
4. Pakistan: ____
5. Brazil: _____

Next question: Give the country of the capitals provided below:

1. Port-au-Prince: ____ (no points for guessing it right since it has appeared so many times in newspaper the previous month)
2. Cairo: _____
3. Santiago: _____
4. Riyadh: _____ (I got this right!)
5. Ottawa: _____ (you know what Sarah wrote? She put JAPAN. I was -.-" again! Anyway the right answer is Canada)

I like quizzes like that! Some people may think it's boring/weird/无聊 but I guess it is just me.
Bring on the General Knowledge quizzes, but please don't test me on history because I don't remember numbers. I only remember one significant event with its date - the French Revolution (answer: 1789).

Labels: countries, General Knowledge, quiz

Long hiatus because of my Graduation Project thesis. It is really no joke. Now you tell me to write any random 800-word essay (which I have to, for another module), I will be able to churn out quite quickly considering I've already written more than 9500 words. It's not over yet, I still need to fine tune my arguments but at least the main structure is already out.

So the latest news is Jack Neo's infidelity (I am still in touch with the world okay).



When news of Jack Neo's infidelity broke out, I was first disgusted, then enraged - isn't he a Christian? Haven't I read somewhere he is Christian? I was super sian.

I slapped my forehead in frustration. Great. Infidelity... and of all things, he is a Christian.
In my mind, I wanted to throw stones at him.

Firstly, I was angry that he is Christian. What sort of example are you setting and telling everyone as someone famous?

Secondly, I am angry his wife will be hurt. Women really lose out in such matters. As a woman myself, I doubt I can tolerate it if I find out that my husband have been cheating. I will definitely do something violent towards him... then, cry my guts out.

But I said no, who am I to judge him? Who am I to pick up the stones? Who am I to say there's a speck of sawdust in his eye when I have a plank in mine?

Read this short account of Jesus and a woman who committed adultery from the Bible and you will understand:

The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group and said to Jesus, "Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?"

They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him. But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger.

When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.

At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. Jesus straightened up and asked her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?"

"No one, sir," she said. "Then neither do I condemn you," Jesus declared. "Go now and leave your life of sin."

Sometimes, I think Jesus is a bit idiosyncratic. We want to punish a man according to what he deserves. Jesus did not disagree, instead he turn and question us... "Do you not have sins yourself"?

So probably Jack Neo committed infidelity which seems big because it is exposed. If we were to expose our own lives, we will probably discover that we are filled with greed, lust, envy, or have done "little things" that do not seem to matter (for eg. taking something in the office/school that does not belong to you, closing your eyes to the elderly man who needed a seat).

LOW sin doesn't mean no sin.

I'm not trying to say I accept such behaviour. I detest it. I loathe men, who justisfy that they have "needs", and go out and fool around. I LOATHE men who have sex with women they don't intend to have commitments with. If you still want to commit with other women when you're already married, I HATE YOU EVEN MORE!

I only have my rights to be angry, but not to judge.

I guess for Jack Neo now, one advice for you: "Go now and leave your life of sin.", just like what Jesus told the woman who committed adultery.

Now, this is the reason why Jesus came to save. Imperfect, we all are.